This is not going to be an upbeat, positive update on all things Living Vicariously. As it stands, all projects are on hiatus. I managed to finish my E3 article. That is it for awhile.

I have had a black Persian cat named Mr. Kelly since I was four-years-old. For nearly 20 years, he’s been my buddy. Over the past few years he’s suffered some illnesses, and up until this year things were up and down, but overall not too bad given his old age. As 2010 rolled on, he began to take a turn for the worse. And right now, it’s painful to admit, but things have become extremely grim. We have no choice but to put Mr. Kelly to sleep. I am doing this update on the fly because in only 4 hours, he will be relieved of his life.

I love him dearly. I love him more than I could possibly put into words. I have been blessed with having such a strong, lifelong bond with my little boy. Knowing that his last moments on Earth are ticking away saddens me greatly. He can hardly walk, so putting off the evitable simply didn’t make a whole lot of sense. I have always wondered what this moment would be like. Would I find him one day? Or would we have to put him down?  Now I know my answer.

Whenever life tore me down, I could always count on him to brighten my day up. Whenever I went on vacation, I’d miss him, and couldn’t wait to get home to see his face light up, and to have him chase me around the house in pure excitement. He didn’t do that earlier this month, after I got back from Vegas. It put me in a bit of a depression. And on top of problems I’ve been facing in my personal life, things have just gotten…to put it bluntly, bad. I’m still not sure what I will do.

I am hours away from experiencing the worst moment of my life. This is a very personal issue, but I think this is something that needs to be out in the open. Love your pets. Love them as much as you can. Whenever they annoy you or bother you, remember they aren’t here for very long. I would give the world to extend his life; to have him here for one more Christmas. There is nothing in this world that would ever replicate the kind of love I have for him. He is like my child. I have taken care of him my entire life. Everyone who knows me personally knows Mr. Kelly.

I will be working on a tribute for him. I’ll post it on the site whenever I can bring myself to dig up old footage of he and I. This is all very hard to deal with. I can’t go for more than 5 minutes without crying. Cherish your loved ones, your pets, your irreplaceables. We are not forever, and they last even less.

I will love and remember you until the day I die. Should I make it into old age, there will always be a spot on my mantle for your photograph.

Goodbye, Mr. Kelly.

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